It forced me to face my inner demons and all the things I hated about myself.
Covid was probably the worse and best thing that happened to me. This is when my depression truly started to express itself. To put you into perspective I had around 3 different classes daily. I fell into having to actually face my deep inner thoughts and demons which I had been cleverly avoiding by staying distracted and always on the move. This threw me into being alone without seeing my friends and at 15 my friends were my life. Then covid hit around when I was 15 turning 16.
But recently I realized that studying is the best talent to have, I can learn anything essentially, and at a rapid speed. Not the best thing to be good at don't you think? That's what I thought at the time. The one thing I knew, is that I had a born talent of studying. This is when I started to really focus on school and nothing else. After I injured my neck my passion for it evaporated. Although I pulled away from gymnastics when I started to get injured. I did more classes learning as much as I could. I had been doing it since I was around 9 I think, don't quote me on that. (Yes, I have a list, you can laugh) After theatre not only is when I started writing more but also when I took gymnastics more seriously.
Which is why that's still one of the things I want to become. Once I left the musical theatre world that's when I really took a pause and was like "Hold up what in the world do I want to do if I don't want to be an actress" (Remember I worked really hard at that for around 8 years) I had my main focus on acting for 8 years, I did other things on the side, but after removing that one huge thing I proceeded to think "Was all that for nothing since I wasn't going to pursue it?" I then thought "Well I have always loved writing stories what if I became an author?" I wrote a lot of stories and loved it.
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